How to Stop Getting In Your Own Way and Start Making the Right Choices
You already know. You've known for a while.
But you're still in the same place. Still waiting. Still choosing the thing that isn't it.
The Morning That Changed Everything
I was sat on a beach in Brighton. Early morning. Watching the sunrise. It was time to leave and go to my office job.
I burst into tears.
Not because I hated my job. But because I didn't want to walk away from the beauty in front of me. I didn't want to go back. And in that moment, sitting there watching the light come up over the water, I made myself a promise.
No one will ever tell me when I can or cannot watch the sunrise.
I had everything on paper. A job. Security. A great salary and all that comes with it. People telling me to be grateful, that I had nothing to complain about. And they were right, on paper. But I was miserable. There was a constant whispering voice that just kept saying: this isn't it.
So I handed in my notice. No safety net or plan. Just a decision based on a gut knowing and trust.
It wasn't about not wanting a job. It was a declaration that I would never sell my soul again.
What Nobody Tells You About Taking the Leap
What came next was not a montage of success.
I decided to go back to Thailand. Study yoga, like I'd always promised myself I would. Try this digital nomad thing. Head to Chiang Mai and figure it out from there.
Then all the limiting beliefs and conditioned emotions came up.
I remember sitting in my car, crying so hard on the phone to my mum that I couldn't breathe. I was terrified. How was I going to survive? What if I failed? What if I came home in a casket?
My friends would laugh at me. My mum would be angry. Nothing ever works for me. This will fail.
I went anyway.
Did it go smoothly? Did it fuck.
So many ups and downs. So many failures. So many moments of fear so intense it paralysed me completely. I was doing all the things, and only getting a little back. I looked at other people who made it on their own terms, who built their own businesses, and I thought: “why them and not me?”
I couldn't figure out what was wrong.
The Real Reason You're Stuck (It's Not What You Think)
Then I embarked on my spiritual journey. My shamanic path.
This journey opened me up to the laws of the universe. It asked me to test them, so I did. And again, I failed. And tried again.
Slowly, I started to understand something that changed everything.
I wanted things. I genuinely wanted them. But my conditioning and my limiting beliefs, low expectations, low self-worth, and low self-value were getting in the way.
I had no idea, because they were subconscious. I couldn't see them. I just kept choosing against myself and wondering why nothing worked.
It wasn't one big lightning bolt moment. It was an accumulation of trying, failing, understanding, adjusting, trying again. Building my own structure from everything I learned, everything I lived, everything I got wrong before I got it right.
And eventually it worked.
Today I run my own online business and am location-free. I live in a tropical country. I travel when I want. I live my purpose every day. I work with one of the most influential shamans of our time.
Oh, and I became a 4x Muay Thai champion, having 17 fights here in Thailand. My first ever class was when I was 40 years old.
And no one ever tells me when I can or cannot watch the sunrise.
None of that happened because I got lucky. It happened because I learned how to actually choose. And then I learned how to get out of my own way long enough to let it happen.
Why Knowing What You Want Isn't Enough
Everyone tells you to follow your dreams, take the leap, back yourself.
Nobody tells you what to do when you've taken the leap and you're still blocking yourself. Still choosing against what you actually want without even realising it.
Here's what I've seen over and over again working with women as a shamanic coach.
When capable women aren't choosing for themselves, it usually comes down to one of three things:
You don't believe you have a choice, life just happens to you
You know you can choose differently, but you're scared to
You want to change, but you don't know where to start
Knowing which of those three applies to you is the starting point.
But knowing isn't enough on its own.
How to Break the Pattern and Choose Differently
The first step in conscious decision making is making the choice about what you actually want, not what you think you should want, not what's safe, not what makes sense on paper.
The second step is understanding what's blocking you from choosing it. For most women, this lives in the subconscious. It's not obvious. It doesn't announce itself. It just quietly sabotages everything you try to build.
The third step is removing it, not try to sidestep or bypass it but actually clearing it. That's where the shamanic work, the magick, the tools of spiritual growth come in.
This is the framework I've built from years of living it, testing it, failing at it and eventually mastering it.
Free Workshop:
Choose Differently, Choose Yourself
That's exactly why I created this free live workshop.
This isn't theory. I'm not going to tell you to believe in yourself and send you on your way. I'm going to walk you through the process live so you can see it in action and leave with a real decision and a real plan.
Here's what you'll walk away with:
Awareness of the pattern that's been keeping you stuck
Clarity on what you've actually been avoiding and why
A simple formula for making clear, confident decisions
One concrete action you are ready to take — today
Choose Differently, Choose Yourself
Saturday 13th June - Free, Live Workshop
Add your name, email, and time zone. I'll be back in touch with the time and joining details. Can't make it live? The recording will be available.
You're not willing to settle. There has to be more than this. You've known it for a long time.
No more "when I'm ready." Come and choose it.
Carrie x
Frequently Asked Questions
What is shamanic coaching for women?
Shamanic coaching combines ancient shamanic techniques with practical coaching tools to help women identify and remove subconscious blocks, develop clarity, and make conscious choices aligned with who they really are.
How do limiting beliefs stop you from making the right choices?
Limiting beliefs operate below conscious awareness. They create patterns of self-sabotage, low expectation and avoidance that keep you choosing the same thing even when you know something needs to change.
What does it mean to choose differently?
Choosing differently means moving from default, conditioned responses to deliberate, conscious decisions that reflect your actual values, desires and potential, not your fear.
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